inkdick: october 12 2008 - a lost cause
I don’t know what is wrong with me sometimes. Ever since I got back from SPX I’ve been feeling very lazy and falling behind on everything, I don’t know why. Maybe I am burnt out from all the prep that went into SPX. Maybe it’s all the junk and fast food I’ve been eating. Maybe it is the daily routine of life that has finally gotten to me. I don’t know.
I haven’t been putting in 100% into my senior project independent study this past week like I should be. I need to be starting to build my website, setting up my online store, keeping track of all hours and money put into making comics and whathaveyou, researching alternative weekly newspapers to submit to, and starting work on my next mini. The only comic related work I’ve done since I got back are these journal comics, and even that is an uphill battle some days.
It’s been a hard half a year for me. Leaving the safety net of the dorms and living on my own. Living alone in an empty and like a hermit for almost all of the summer. Being jobless since last May. Dropping a class in order to buy a much needed computer to replace my dying one. Having my computer stolen. Juozas going to war and all the problems that come with that. Yeah, there’s been bright spots here and there, but still, the last six months or so have been pretty tough on me, and I’ve been trying to push on with the daily struggle. but sometimes I hit the wall head on. It gets harder everyday sometimes it seems. Is this normal? Is this what they call growing up?
What am I doing with my life?
Let’s hope tomorrow is a better day.
October 14th, 2008 at 1:22 am
Hey man you have earned a little break. Kick some ass!
October 14th, 2008 at 7:56 am
When you get like this that is the time to push harder. Don’t let the “Turkeys” get you . . . in this case the “turkey” is the slump you are in. Exercise, my friend, exercise. Most times it works for me. Use the autumn air to inspire and the season to invigorate. Afterall, Halloween is only 16 days away!
October 14th, 2008 at 7:18 pm
Man, I have to say, it’s been like that for me too since SPX, it gets hard to get up in the morning. I’ve barely had time for my comics lately, and I need to get my comic done for the biography anthology, but something just seems to drag me down.
October 15th, 2008 at 1:23 am
well…first we leave for college, and we have our freedom. But really, we have some structure in our lives due to college life. But once you’re done with that…then, truly you are free, so to speak. Free to do whatever you want, meaning, no one’s going to tell you to work on comics, or go to work, or pay your bills, or whatever. Its truly hard, I say and I miss the structured life I led…I’ve yet started penciling my next story I need to do…nor have I done my job for Image Comics…and the deadline’s around the corner.
October 15th, 2008 at 5:04 am
Normal. Most people with a bit of sense will always find a problem in any situation. The key is to carry on a challenge. Life’s about fighting within the problematic sensitivities of our existence. Life is war at one level or another. In the end it’s about whether you managed to pull off a heroic move, a heroic effort, in the eye of history, of mythological principles. Good luck. At least you’ve got a talent to bet on. I’m in perhaps a worse situation, with no real talent!
October 15th, 2008 at 9:56 am
I’ve felt the same way. It’s like I’ve been in an emotional stress vacuum since SPX, and now all I want to do is sit on my ass. It’s time to shut off the damn TV and get to work!